polerin

there is something magical about helping a loved one get to sleep when then aren't feeling well, even when the tensions between the two of you are high at the moment. Lissa and I have been getting along a little better, even though we have rough spots now and then where things are too tough for both of us. We had one of those tough spots tonight, and I spent most of the evening downstairs working on sketches and on. She wasn't feeling well even without the emotional weirdness however, and so I held her as she went to sleep, reasuring her that everthing will be ok eventually.

I think it will.

It'll take a long time, and it's not going to be an easy process. I still hold her dear to my heart, and would give almost anything to have her back, but I realize at least logically that it's not going to happen. Both she and I are strong people, though she has problems realizing that about herself sometimes.

I wish she hadn't bought that damn SUV yesterday though. (long story, I'll put that in another post. It could be worse.)

(well, other than the fact that it's an SUV ;p)