polerin

I'll give you three, actually. I have never gone to college, but every other year or so I go to some institute of higher learning and ask for a curriculum, financial aid papers, and information about scholarships. I fill out all the paperwork, and just before I sign my name, I get a panic attack, look at the time, and say "Actually, I just remembered I have somewhere important to be. Would it be alright if I take these home and return later?" I then just shove them in a drawer until the next time I clean that drawer out.

I pride myself on my sense of humor, but I developed it as a means of hiding who I am and what I feel from others. Now I can incorporate my sense of humor into being myself and interacting with others properly, but if you see me trying to hard and for too long of a period of time, it's probably because I feel like shit.

Last thing: I care more about what others think of me than I think of myself, yet when others compliment me, and it happens a lot, unless it's someone I'm good friends with, I think they're just bullshitting me to make me feel better and I end up feeling worse. I have a lot of trust and self-image problems, obviously. I'm quick to trust SOME people, don't ask me why, but most people I'm incredibly weary of.

I would like to know how you and lissy-face met. I like sappy stuff like that :3